The Longing Hides The Deepest Fear 我的渴望隐藏着我最深的恐惧

Medium: Performance, Video

Performers: Chudan Peng; Haoyang Wang

Date: May, 2021

Location: Location: Gossard Space, Building 49, RMIT University Melbourne City Campus, 124 La Trobe St, VIC 3000

Statement: This work describes a Fujoshi female’s utopian yearning to love and her masochistic struggling mindset. Feminism has been defined as radical and stigmatized in China. Therefore, I empower ‘Fujoshilism’ as another expression of feminism. Fujoshilism is explained by females projecting their expectations about ideal love, sexuality, and interpersonal relationship on ‘gay love anime literature’ (academically called Yaoi) to gather a sense of security. There is a controversial circumstance that some people regard Fujoshilism as deformation from patriarchy. However, I advocate that Fujoshilism can be an actively queered path to support females achieving mental freedom. The soundtrack and animated liquid leave a question about space and dimension. They are the embodiment of queering methodology.

This work promotes feminism through cross-culture and contemporary perspectives. It includes several historical elements such as performance, interaction, conceptualism, and subculture relations. The sequel of this work will be more intensive on positive metaphors to convey respect, diversity, and the power of art.